The Effects of the Away - a poem

The most horrendous thing happened yesterday
The most little special breathed his last and away.
The one that I carried inside me so long
The one I delivered who came out so strong.
The miracle boy that surprised all the docs
The miracle child that defied all the clocks.
The son that I cherished and loved with my heart
The son that I treasured and played a huge part.
My special one tiny, a doll's size at first
My special son, precious, that made my heart burst.

I would sing and would smile and would kiss him so much
I would tickle his belly with oh such a fuss.
For he filled a most special place inside of me
For he loved us all greatly as content as can be.
I'd hug him and hold him and give him such love
I'd squeeze him and stroke him a peacegiving dove.
He'd smile, and giggle and coo a reply
He'd lift his one eyebrow, I swear it's no lie.
My cheek to his gently, my lips to his brow
My arms would embrace him, I miss that so now.

What's this? Your face ripples, it's fading away.
What's this? Your face fading, oh heartache today.
That day my heartache was intense and insane
That day when my loss it inflicted such pain.
A part of my heart left and now is no more
A part of myself died and hurt to my core.
You were taken and stolen, you could not sustain
You were taken no waking you would ever regain.
So we said our good-byes and we shed heavy tears
So we treasured last moments that should have been years.

And now my heart's heavy and my heart is sad
And now my heart longs for the treasure I had.
The treasure that's now with the Lord up above
The treasure that lives where there is perfect love.
He'll never know pain now and never know fear
He'll never know suffering or shed any tear.
My special is happy, is loved and accepted
My special's with family and now is perfected.
Though this gives us comfort and gives us some peace
Though Jesus walks with us our pain doesn't cease.

So now, we stay on here to live out our days
So now we continue modified in our ways.
We keep moving on though we miss his dear song
We keep moving on though forced, this was so wrong.
Time moves so slowly and all have forgot
Time has passed on since we prayed and we fought.
Days turned to weeks and now it seems no one knows
Days became months and my heart feels the tow.
We still miss him dearly, we still miss him lots
We still wish more time is what we would have got.

You see tomorrow marks two months since he passed that day
You see no one remembers his life slipped away.
I am sad that few knew the delight that he gave
I am sad longing for his touch which I crave.
But I thank God for giving him to us those days
But I thank God for blessing us so with his ways.
For his presence added much to our home and our boys
For his life touched us deeply and brought many joys.
And one day we'll see him united again
And one day we'll live there enjoying God's reign.

Until then we process the caverns of pain
Until then the shadow of death will not maim.
For the pain will not linger or stay here forever
For the pain God will heal, grant release from this tether.
For our God is faithful and our God is good
For our God He overcomes all as He should.
Until the grieving is ended and the pain is all gone
Until God delivers we'll see how He's strong.
He'll sustain us and keep us and walk with us too
He'll stand by our side as He carries us through.