I'd Give It All Back to Have My Son

We have been in our new home over a month now. And boy do we all love it. It's so homey. So cute. So peaceful. And enough room for all of us to enjoy. It's great! Other little celebrations have occurred in the last month as well. 

• Mark was able to find a lawn mower at a great price since it's the end of the mowing season. 
• Leaves are falling everywhere and the boys have already made a pile, with my fancy raking moves, to jump in.
• The boys have ridden their bikes almost daily giving them the most workout they have seen in the last year that they've had them.
• We have started hanging pictures.
• We've had our housewarming party and regularly entertain since it's been 3 years since that has happened.
• And we finally have a dog again. Well, she's actually a puppy. But we saw her picture on Craig's list and just couldn't resist. The boys couldn't be happier unless they got to eat candy at every meal.
• My new appreciation to make more of life and relationships.

All of these things, things I have dreamt of since we lost our house over 3 years ago and now, we are settled. Thank God we are settled. And there are many more wonderful things yet to come. I smile as I look to the future.

And it's hard not to think that it was because our son died. We added Andrew to the life insurance policy through my work and never dreamt we would cash one in ever. I even had to produce a copy of the death certificate in order to close on the house. Can you believe that?

Despite the hardships we have experienced so many blessings. And despite the thankfulness in my heart, the joys and the good things God has given us since June 4th came and went, I'd give it all back in a moment to have my son.

I'd give it all back to have my little special.