First Prenatal Dr Visit

I had my first baby doctor appointment last week.

The doctor teased me that it was my annual baby visit. I had to laugh. I love my OB! He's just great! Very personable, knowledgeable and a great ally. And for the last 4 years since we've been here, he's seen me on either the pregnancy side of the baby or the delivery or post-partum part of a baby. So his teasing is accurate.

And all is well. And the ultrasound shows only 1 little bundle. Good strong heartbeat. Just a little anti-social is all. Had its back to us the whole time. And a part of me was hoping that the ultrasound would show no baby and that I was just really late for once.

But it's good to know that baby bundle is doing alright so far. It seems I'm doing alright as well. And the boys were excited to see pictures of their tiny new sibling. Even if they were a bit confused on why it is so small and why they can't know if it's a boy or girl.

And that night I went to sleep and cried telling Andrew we were having another. Feeling the deep pain in my heart of missing him and feeling anew the anguish of losing him. And I pretended I was being held closely and tenderly as my pillow grew wet from the tears.