Andrew's Legacy

What is it like to lose a child?

It's like a part of yourself dying. It's like pain greater than you can imagine. It's like nothing that words can really describe.

There have been a few times that I have stopped into the funeral home and seen the precious woman that wrote our son's obituary and his program. She is a very patient, kind and caring woman and boy is she gifted at handling people that are emotional. And whenever I talk to her I get emotional. Probably becuase she is associated with an event that carries strong emotions.

But Kim is great. And she has shared something that brings a smile to my face even now.

When I worked with her on Andrew's program, I directed her to my blog here and told her to pull off one of my first postings that tell Andrew's basic story. No one really got to meet him or get to know him during his short little life. So my goal at his funeral was to make sure that people got to get a little bit of an idea of what Andrew was like. What his story is and was.

Evidentally this isn't something that is done that often. So she's told me that she's had many other mothers come in and Andrew's program is one of the samples that she shows them of how they could honor their child. And she says his little story touches them so much.

Do you know how much that means to me? That my little special is touching people he and I have never met?

Well, it's part of his legacy she tells me. That he touches them. And it helps them to tell the stories of their little ones.

Wow.

I thought his legacy was mainly how he touched me so much with how much he valued me as his mother and that was fine to me. And maybe they'll be a little something with his brothers that we haven't seen yet. I don't know.

But to hear that he is touching others . . . . . . . . . . that means a lot to me.

I love you little special. And I miss you! I always miss you!