Waiting with Anticipation

Still no baby.

I packed more of a my suitcase for the hospital as it seemed I was in labor yet again today. It seemed so promising. So I am a bit blue tonight. No little girl in my arms. Still a belly that keeps hanging over more and more and more pressure on my pelvis making my walking even more awkward.

Mark went into the garage and got out some more baby items. The bouncy seat and car seat we got just for Andrew.

I have wondered if this would be hard for me. But it turns out that I have looked at both and am fine. I am excited. I am happy. In short, I am fine. I am reminded of my little special but there is no grief or pain. No hurt or anger. Nothing negative. I look at them and remember Andrew. I see these items that only Andrew used and still look to the future of our little girl using them with great excitement.

Gosh is that nice. I'm guessing his swing will be alright as well. But maybe not. It's hard to predict all things.

We have heard that this little one will bring joy with her into our family. Healing from Andrew's death. I think that may be true. We are all so looking forward to meeting her.

We still don't know what to name her though.