Happy 2nd Birthday Andrew!

Happy Birthday Andrew!

Happy 2nd birthday!

Your dad and I are a bit down today. Instead of getting out a birthday cake I made for you and putting 2 candles on top for you to blow out after singing, "happy birthday" to you, we have just another evening at home.

Just another day.

Well, not really.

It's a day where your absence is especially felt.

I should have gone shopping for you trying to find something special just for you to play with. And a new book. Probably a Dr. Seuss I really like that your brothers have destroyed and we've thrown away.

I should have given you a hug this morning before going to work, given you an extra kiss on the forehead and said, "happy birthday little special!"

I wonder if I still would be calling you little special at this point?

I still wonder what you would be like? What would your voice sound like? How would you be joking around now because I'm pretty sure you were a little joker in the making. What would you like to play with? Which brother would you play with the most?

Would you have learned to go up the stairs first or down? Samuel would go up and not down for the longest time. Then when Alex came along, he quickly gravitated to the stairs to keep up with Samuel and ended up mastering going down first. Scared the heck out of me until we learned that he'd automatically turn himself around and slide down bump after bump on his belly. He'd get down in 2 seconds flat. Or would Ryan show you a new way which would cause us to fear for the first few times?

Well, sadly, we won't know.

And unfortunately, we don't know.

You are forever 5 1/2 months to us although we mark the years now. And we miss you terribly.

Happy Birthday Andrew!

We send you our love even though we are apart. And wish that you were here with us.