I Just Want My Son Back

I have started reading a book by Mary Beth Chapman "Choosing to See". I love her husband's music. It's very real, has great lyrics that really speak of many facets of life and most of it has a great beat. I saw him in concert once and he was so personable and normal. He shared a presentation of photos of his family like we were dear friends. It made me like him even more. He did the foreword of the book and just glows about his wife. He definitely loves her and is her best friend and partner in life.

Over 25 years together and 4 years ago they had the unthinkable happen. Their evening was going along just like normal. The 5, 6 and 8 year old girls were outside playing when their 17 year old son came home in his truck. He pulled up to the driveway as Stephen, her husband, went outside when Mary Beth heard some commotion that wasn't the usual hype of excitement. She went outside to find the older brother holding his little sister's body screaming for her to wake up. From what I remember hearing it seems he had accidentally run her over. She hasn't gotten back to talking about that yet.

I am enjoying her perspective. Her faith. Her honesty. From what I have read she is quite similar to me in a lot of ways.

She even said at the beginning of her book that despite the lives that her daughter's story has touched, she doesn't care. She only wants to have her daughter back.

I went to the funeral home where we made all of Andrew's arrangements and had our private family visitation the day before the funeral. They had a copy of this book that was just being cataloged into their lending library. The lady who wrote Andrew's obituary, his brochure for his funeral and did the presentation that was shown before his funeral was there. She told me that my blog and what I wrote about Andrew's life and our brochure has been shared with many families since ours. She said it has helped many other mothers to tell the stories of their babies. Has helped them.

While this is good to hear. I would still prefer to have my son back too.